幸福背后

那温暖　你的温度
安静的意味着那　短暂幸福
爱就算满足　却是个未知数
如果有天长地久　有多遥远　让我看见

越是幸福越害怕 怕它会结束
越拥抱　却越是孤独
没人了解的寂寞 我自己照顾
不想让你发现我凌乱的脚步 我努力跟上你的速度
不再独自感受 那幸福背后藏的辛苦

那么快　你的甜苦
如何让我的花色
爱让人喜悦就算会有变数
只要能拥有一秒有多辛苦　我愿付出

越是幸福越害怕 怕它会结束
越拥抱　却越是孤独
没人了解的寂寞我自己照顾
不想让你发现我凌乱的脚步 我努力跟上你的速度
不再独自感受
那幸福背后藏的辛苦

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我现在就是这样了, 最好不要再次恋爱...
but well... my thinking will change with time. I couldn't find anymore other songs to describe my feelings for my disappointment with relationships. It seems like so.......... far, yet near.

A good news.

I had finally confirmed that my greatest obstacle of life is over, and i confirmed it today. From now on, i will move on with my life. I will not turn my head back ever again. The memories created before will be part of my life's teaching. I will learn how to love someone, all over again, differently. Thanks to 'u', who made me see how failed i was as a girlfriend. So in order to not let it happen again, I will first, change myself. Beyond your expectations. And this is NONE of your business forever.

No matter many times of "爱错" you played over and over, fact is, we loved each other before. But today onwards, I will love you no more. Being with you had trained my inner strength substantially. My tolerance and patience level stretched. You made me felt too fucked up beyond recognition.

I will learn to be understanding. However, each's definition of "understanding" is different. My "version" will be to accept what I had first perceive to be, and all possible aspects and areas, that require my care, my ignorance, my respect and my admiration towards it. To be understanding to people, they will first be filtered by me. If they are deem worthy, it will be a higher level of acceptance. Even if my temper is to rise, i will tell myself that.......

"If i do not understand, no one will. If i am going to be angry, not only me, but they will be sad too. They are not my enemies. They love me too. They will not hurt me. I know them as how they are now. I will continue to accept this. They can't change unless they are willing to."

by the way... this will only apply to friends. LOL SO PEOPLE, AREN'T U GUYS HONOURED?

so........ the definition for a lover, may be different. Perhaps due to my personality. Haha... so i need to practice this more with friends first before tested on a lover, probably.... hmm when will i meet my prince charming leh? I give myself some time to think about this question. Love is 很玄妙的. Better let nature take its course. =D

Well.. It's so sweet to imagine many things. But not so sweet to imagine togetherness (due to fear). LOL. imagine.............. getting yourself tied down first. and if it's the wrong man... HOW? LOL..... die lor. THIS TIME MZ OPEN EYES BIG BIG. *i'm lucky i got out*

越是幸福越害怕 怕它会结束
越拥抱　却越是孤独
没人了解的寂寞我自己照顾
不想让你发现我凌乱的脚步 我努力跟上你的速度
不再独自感受
那幸福背后藏的辛苦

my thoughts exactly. is this call low confidence? hais. smack myself la. hahahahaa. really no confidence at all. <3

TELL ME HOW TO BOOST CONFIDENCE IN THIS AREA! *comments pls, thanks!* =D

and yes. I WANNA COMPLAIN.

TODAY'S TRAINING ON COMPLIANCE AND ACCOUNTING SYSTEM SUCKS TO THE COREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE IT'S DEHYDRATING BEAUTIFUL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! >_<

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