Btw, in case anyone's wondering why there wasn't a Chapter 13 post, it's because I HAD TAKEN IT DOWN. lalala. I dislike 13. >(

Anyway, there's lotsa updates here. Let me display my newly mastered "owl" characteristic to start categorising the topics i would like to discuss on my agenda. ><

1. Pissed off, right now (dad).
2. Pissed off, right now (mum).
3. Sister In Hospital (discharged today)
4. Job (professionalism and inadequacy)
5. Self (goal setting)
6. Love Life <3

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1. Pissed off right now at Dad.

He had this power to piss me off many times in a day, and seriously, i think he needs to get a life. Damn it. I called his mobile. Told him to help me get a book by paying for it first and I WILL PAY HIM LATER. Guess what?

- He did not pick my call up.
- He called me later on and kup my phone
- I called him back again he did not pick up again.
- He called back later on and this was what he said.

DAD - "huh? i thought your sister paid for it already?"

ME - "No? Since when did she pay things like this herself? It was me who initiated."

DAD - "Then did u pay then? No, i think your sister paid for it and i'm just supposed to collect."

ME - "I told you it was me who said about the payment! Not herrrrrr..."

DAD - "Den how much? Why that time never pay when u see her?"

ME - "How would I know I will need to pay her the moment i see her? she dun have the book that time oso. By the way, it cost like $20+. You pay first i pay u later."

DAD - "Get it done yourself. I no money!"

-KUP-

NABEI?! kns... kup my fone with I NO MONEY! kns la. $20+ nia... i say i pay u back later rite! wth... really get my nerve up. nvm. I BUY LIAO U CANNOT SEE. kns. I got to go down to LIPPO Centre myself to get that book lor. NVM. kns. Don't even know if he's serious about not getting the book or not. Darn.


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2. Pissed off at mum, just now.

Look. I was eating my maggie mee that time when she CALLED MY DAD. Dad told me to go down 10 mins later.

I asked why.

Dad said mum's coming up and needs my help to carry somethings. I said "Ok". But i added that "mum will call me when she reaches."

Usually, she does this when she needs my help. 90% of the time she'll make a call to me. OK?

I was waiting for her call. After i finished eating my noodles and drank my soup. Nope, there wasn't any calls.

Minutes later i saw mum and my sis at the door. Obviously she looked pissed off and she started shouting. Told me how heavy were those baggages she was carrying. I relented. What else can i say? She did not call me, which was really out of what i had expected. Ok. So i helped her at the door, with the baggages...

it was surprisingly light.

I told her. "not heavy wad..."

She scolded "i asked u to come down 10 mins !!! wtf u doing at home?!"

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz KNS. U WAN MY HELP U CALL MY HANDPHONE, NOT CALL MY DAD'S HANDPHONE! U RELAYED THE MESSAGE TO HIM AND NOT TO ME! Really u know, USUALLY YOU WOULD CALL MY HANDPHONE WHEN U'RE REACHING! I had been waiting afterall, for ur call. And the baggages were light. What the hell are u shouting at me exactly? For not showing face by going down to help you? Now u turned ur back on me, it's ok. Scolded that I had done nothing at home, never wash bowls, etc. Fine. Shooted me like a machine gun, but it's ok!

I SHOUTED BACK, "I HAD WASHED ALL THE DAMN BOWLS ALRITE!"

-SLAM- i do not wish to talk to u right now.


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3. Sister In Hospital

Oh yes. My sister was in the hospital for some days cause of her operation and I was really worried for her. Kinda upset when i saw her kena all the tubes poked into her flesh. Heart pain la. Afterall she's my beloved fattie cat. <3

She was admitted in the hospital like 2-3 days ago, i do not remember when... (my memory again). But the first day after her operation was so heart wrenching. The general anesthesia had worn her out. It caused her giddiness and bouts of pain. Here and there. Especially her throat. She could not drink water cause of her operation. She had bruises on her face, which swelled like a winter melon. Her jaw, her mouth, her nose, was bleeding. Tubes and needle were inserted in her left hand, one into her nasal, another one into her throat, and last, in bladder. It looked like she's just went through a major operation and looked damn vulnerable.


But what astonishes me was what she vomitted if she's "too giddy" or i "fed her too much water".

She vomitted blood.

Damn. Imagine i was there, about to cry when i saw this. I was goddamn worried. Her first puke kena my face.... Blood lai eh. Not a lot, some nia, i wiped it off. Helped her with all that i can. Her 2nd puke never kena me. But it was in the middle of the night like 2-3am. haiszz. Nvm. She ok liaos.

I took care of her for a night without sleeping. Imagine. I was sleeping beside her bed (on an armchair) till about 5am, and i was chased out by a nurse. She told me "You can't stay in here... Sorry, but can you go outside sleep?" I was flabbergasted. What can i say? Flare at her? Nope. I went out.

Lucky me. That time when i was out, the "黑社会" had retreated themselves by half. I managed to occupy just ONE SEAT and slept the night through (i thought i could)... But it was like 45 mins later, they came back, wagged their fast tongues in sonorous tones. I suffered from semi-deafness. I psychoed myself to sleep till 8.10am. I woke up. >_<.

But whatever it is, after i woke up, she looked better already. Hmmm, no giddiness no vomitings. Yesterday i went down at about 2.30am to catch a glimpse of her. Wanna make sure she's alright. Lewis drove me down. (hugs, thanks hun..). She's better.

So now about my sis? She's now at home, just discharged. Good. <3

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4. Job (Professionalism and inadequacy)

To be exact, I feel inadequate in this financial line. It seems like it's a job that i personally cannot hold myself up to.

I asked myself many times, why i hadn't been able to work efficiently. What was restricting or holding me back so much. In fact, all these answers are simply because I felt inadequate.

Inadequate in knowledge. Inadequate financially. Inadequate in contacts. Inadequate in education. Inadequate in professionalism. Inadequate in self-confidence. Inadequate in team-spirit. Inadequate in rewards/ incentive. Inadequate in feeling "needed" by my team.

There are many inadequacies.

So much so it dragged me down and I'm sinking.

I held onto Lewis, for him to open me up, and talk to me. In areas like this, there can only be someone i feel very close to me, that i allow, to let myself discover with this "someone", what i needed to do. Alternatively, I approached Yvonne. She will be one to teach me to be more "organised" from now on. I allowed her because, i really cannot find anyone as systematic as her. She's just damn organised. LOL.

In fact, i never knew myself to be this messy and have this "JUST DO IT LA" attitude, until i joined this line.

In the nutshell, I just need a system which i can truly conform. Not a system that was already set up, but I cannot blend in well.

Whatever it is, I'm trying to blend. Trying and doing it, very hard.

I just lost my motivation to carry on, somewhere. Perhaps it will really really be better, for myself to just do things on my own than in a team which i cannot really, fit into... I'm sick of this self-destructive attitude.

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5. Self (goal setting)

I clearly understands that every successful person will have something in their mind that they are fighting for. Be it for their family or loved ones, be it for self-fulfilment, be it for someone else, or something that they cherish or yearn for, right now i clearly know i cannot be successful because I truly do not know what or who to fight for. In short, I lacked a goal.

I'm in a state of delusion where I cannot find fulfilment in most things that i am doing, or had done. I lost this sense of direction for actualisation. This feeling of job satisfaction. The BINGO! feel of doing something right and being rewarded for the right application of job and soul onto what I aimed for.

I need a goal. Can someone please help me discover what i truly need to achieve?

Damn. For this. I need help. I need to bring my state back. Else, everything that was done, or still doing, really, they do not seem real to me. Just when can i get this sense of reality back to myself?

Or has things been too good to be true for me, I could not turn my back around and pick my lost limbs?

If not, it must be because I had been overexposed to cynical people, overexposed to too much criticisms and too much comments which I hadn't been able to accept psychologically, I had lost my self-confidence and my leadership trait.

Who will bring back this arcane feelings I had lost?

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6. Love Life <3

Nothing beats this. Ok. =)

My love life has been fulfiling. Very very fulfiling. I seemed like a married woman, totally attached to her husband, totally conforming and totally understanding.

For him, everything is worth it, and will be worth it. I really find this part inexplicable already. LOL.

With him, everything became easier. I slowly approach life, without much doubts as i had before. I slowly opened up my heart to people. I am transforming into someone better...

A born follower, as i am. I need a true leader whom i can follow for life. I love him to bits. =)

Labels: dad, job, lewis., mum, self, sis

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。 says:
ERIC ERIC
=D
i missed u

*ڱ E c h O says:
OMG
who's that guy
lol

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。 says:
my hubby lor
why why?
so loving looking rite.

*ڱ E c h O says:
so scary ja ma

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。 says:
u busy busy ah

*ڱ E c h O says:
because I am talking to u...then I see a man's picture
it's scary

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。 says:
hahahaha
orh
i change

*ڱ E c h O says:
and u know how much u guys look alike ga la
it's like Laura had become a man

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。 says:
..........wtf... got so alike until i look like man! hahahaha. nvm!!! i listen le i happy!
eric eric
i show u a pic

*ڱ E c h O says:
lol

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。 says:
so cute rite --->
aiyo.... haha

*ڱ E c h O says:
lol
yes la

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。 says:
hahaha gosh eric
so much to tell u
i'm over over over the moonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

*ڱ E c h O says:
haha, this is funny
http://www.chaosmatrix.org/library/humor/reject.html
what happened over past week this time ah?

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。 says:
wahahaha
how to say neh

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
things between me n him evolved till so much
i think we can really get married anytime
hahahaha
and yes eric
i introduce u one japanese movie
i bet ok
10000000000000000000000% with u
that u'll cry like nobody'sbusiness
Sky of Love ????
n after watching this movie with lewis
gosh... i cherish him more

*ڱ E c h O says:
so much in so little time
what had you guys been doing ha?

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
...
what
!
hmmm what ah

*ڱ E c h O says:
did you like see him everyday?

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
we got a series of activities

*ڱ E c h O says:
ya, that's probably why

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
why neh? got problem ga?

*ڱ E c h O says:
it's progressing "too fast"
but being ??????, it's ok geh.

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
hmmm
but what he n i both need in fundamental rite
meaning the basic, the root of this whole thing between me n him is common wor
we both need Presence...
sometimes seeing him for a while can alr
but well, u may be right la
haha..
if u lookon the other side
i've been tgt w his friends as well wor
does that constitute problems? similarly, he also get involved w my friends ga... like together we listen to their problems
den 2 brains to solve it faster
wtf is wrong w that letter. HAHAHAHHAA

*ڱ E c h O says:
nothing's wrong geh
it's just that
when things are too "perfect" at the beginning of the relationship
and when shit happens later on, you will always refer back to this stage.
where you live in a dream everyday

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。 says:
oh...
i c...
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
so in ur opinion la
what shd be done?
in this r/s rite
i've not been like before
i've changed to be good natured
i've quitted the argument thing in me
even talking to mum
i used my most gentle tone
it wasn't like this before
i was so damn bloody rebellious n defiant, every word that she said just seemed like she's stepped on my toe again
i'll rant and shout and scream
><
but now it's such a change i've never been before
i've even converted to the young me
where i report things to her
where i even tell her what time i'm coming home, where i'm going, who i'm with and what she wants to eat if possible...
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...
i even convinced myself that using past as REFERENCE TO MISTAKES ... nv to commit... etc..
hmmmmmmm so much explanation from me, eric ah
am i being defensive? =/ i'm just figuring out...

*ڱ E c h O says:
both.
No one understands yourself more than, well, you.
But I am just speaking from what I feel.
I am not targetting at you.

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。 says:
orh

*ڱ E c h O says:
I mean, ideally
I would hope that your relationship remains the same way for a very very long time.
but reality check, one day, conflict will happen
and thats when the real test begins
for any relationship
but right now
just enjoy the honeymoon period
build up as much happy memories as you can.
but when conflicts arise, you are also prepared and not create a big fuss over it.
other people didn't expect it so when stuff happens, they ended in bad terms.
Just be understand
ing*
compromise
they are all keys to prolonging a happy r/s

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
hmm
yes
i agree totally
so for now
perhaps i'll not think of any bad stuff
i'll focus on being happy
create many many happy memories
so when bad stuff happen
i will know and will understand that
it's just some conflict that's inevitable
understanding him from past to present to future is the most important thing...
that in argument if both gets harsh
we know it's just ... for a moment of spite...
human afterall..

*ڱ E c h O says:
good la, if you can think like this, 我都放心

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。 says:
haha.. thank u eric! =D

*ڱ E c h O says:
Cause if bad stuff do happen, I be here to listen anyway
but i prefer to keep listening good stuff
haha.

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
HAHAHAHA
r/s is a weird thing
it takes a dip on both sides
our job is to balance it
=D

*ڱ E c h O says:
ya
and like
when u are happy, u feel like u are in heaven
and when things go wrong
it's like oging to hell
ur heart and feelings will be so vulnerable

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
u need to compensate heaven to get out of hell...

*ڱ E c h O says:
feel expwsosed.
yes
find a balance

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
yup.

*ڱ E c h O says:
and just...stay on earth
but prefer to be on a higher place
so closer to heaven

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
ideally, i would want to be in heaven
and he and i both in heaven
we'll b happy there
=D
and just don't sin
repentttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt

*ڱ E c h O says:
i am a bad person, so I look up from hell
lol

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
hahaha
actually eric
with him
everything in my world
turned and changed for the better...
i'm so grateful to him

*ڱ E c h O says:
hahaha
good la

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
he's influenced me so much
i get so much so much closer with my very loved mother
i love my mother more than anyone else in the world...
and he somehow la
JUST SOMEHOW
makes me love my mother more
and i even show it out
it's so impossible to hug my mother
but i'm trying now
.................................. i can't believe it either
but i'm so happy
so happy that i finally turned back. finally able to talk to her nicely, hear it once again, her pleasant response to me, in face, or over the fone...
hear her shielding me from dad
whne i got home late
hear her shielding me from many relatives when they said i'm wild and bad...
................................................ that's perhaps the reason why
i wanna get so close to Lewis...
he's brought my true nature to life... once again.

*ڱ E c h O says:
aiii
good good
now that's the kind of "boyfriend" any girl should have
bring values into a r/s
and help shape the girl into a happier person
who's proud of who she is

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
=D
he showed my picture to all his friends
hahaha, bring me to show to all his friends
and i know when he did that, my job is to feel comfortable with it. and i'll not disgrace him either, cuz it's all his beloved bros. i'll mingle with them, and together with lewis, we're a unit.
=)
i was not like this before

*ڱ E c h O says:
hhahah
so clingy now
in a sweet way

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
i used to be one who sat at a corner
face black black
thinking that by bf had... ditched me
for his bros
but with lewis
i want to get involved
very very involved in his life
haha... and eric
i'm glad i asked u before
how cancerians are like
=/ and u told me
good for a husband
LOL
so i really go for it.
then i realised
all along since i'm young
i'm looking for a husband
not a boyfriend
=/ LOL. the expectations that i once laid
seem NOT LIKE EXPECTATIONS at all when it comes to him
my DEMANDING that all of my ex said

*ڱ E c h O says:
it just comes naturally
from him
without you requesting anything

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
he just thinks that it's part of all relationship

*ڱ E c h O says:
how perfect is that huh?
haha

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
hahaha....
i don't wish to think that it's perfect

*ڱ E c h O says:
now, let me find that girl who will appreciate who I am.

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
cuz.. i know it's never perfect in everythng

*ڱ E c h O says:
as, the ways you describe the kind of person Lewis is..

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
but there are surely perfections in some areas...

*ڱ E c h O says:
it's pretty similar to me.

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
HAHAHA

*ڱ E c h O says:
or what I want to give into my gf
or had given
the difference is
26 yr old and 22 yr old is fine
but 22 and 18 isn't

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
? 26 n 22?

*ڱ E c h O says:
u and him

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
22 n 18?
he's 28
LOL

*ڱ E c h O says:
ok..28 and 22
is still fine
the key lies in the girls' age
18 not settle

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
not reali geh
trust me it's not the age only

*ڱ E c h O says:
at least the ones I met/went out with

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
it's the mindset
how their family groomed them
my mother groomed me to find a boyfriend who can be my husband
that's why whatever she asked for
whatever she demand from me in my bf
is different
now i finally understood, why she failed some of my relationships and what i used to hate her for
it's her greatest love as a mother for me
why she'd rather disown me
than to make me accept a man
who she really feels
cannot be a husband
why she's so damn frank when she said
"break up with him. else dun call me mother."
i finally understood.
I really thank Lewis for it. He makes me see...
oh gosh.
saying this
tears are welling up
>< cuz i used to be so bad to mother...
hais. now tears fell

*ڱ E c h O says:
/hug

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
i've made a plan
if she lives for another 30 years
and i'm 22 this year
i'm gonna compensate her
with 30 years of goodness
8 years bonus
for all the shit and wrong i've done, since i'm 14 to 22
it's also 8 years
i broke up with ex at 22.
so really. what a timing. HAHAHA

*ڱ E c h O says:
still have time

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
ya
=D
Eric eric i thank u too
woahs.. u must be crowned
Lewis will love u too
hahaha
u've been such a great bro to me. despite, us knowing each other for just
2 months?
DOTA is really something that brings us together
hahaha... i'm glad i played that
=x

*ڱ E c h O says:
haha
aww, you are so sweet!
Seeing that you recognized me as a brother, I can't just sit here and do nothing ma

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
hahahah
u're really a great bro
serious
u've guided me in some areas of my life
make me realise that sometimes...
life's not that harsh
i shd really relax
hahahaa
n dun keep thinking of those logicals, dun keep trying to rationalise thing, dun keep nitpicking some decisions that shd be made with feelings instead of the stupid counting brain
u gave me a direction and spurred me on to getting my heart's key
i'm so damn grateful to u ga. u duno meh? hahahaha now u do rite~!

*ڱ E c h O says:
now I do!
haha, the best way to win a pisce over is to show appreciation
since I give a lot, and when I am recognized for what I did, me love that person!
hahaha
well, you helped me too la.
right now I am fine, but whenever and whoever the next case's gonna be, you better be around to listen!
haha

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
of course!
hahaha
well
that's what lewis said to me too
i appreciates him
i tellhim what i'm happy about
i show him that i'm grateful of what he did for me
i never used to be like this
now i duno why
i keep doing it
and i know it makes one feel really happy
and i want to do more
i want it to be in my nature
and it's good for me
cuz i'm recognising my own feelings too
=D
bro !!! JIAYOU
whahahahaha
perhaps ur nx may be a blond
=D

*ڱ E c h O says:
hahaha!
Seeing you so happy makes me happy la.

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
ahahaha
eh eh
what's the time over there
u no need sleep is it
!
go sleep la
it's damn late already over there

*ڱ E c h O says:
I sleep soon la
3am

我拥有了属于我的幸福，那就是你。says:
yea lah
go go go

*ڱ E c h O says:
ho la, then I will talk to you later


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I'm so happy. <3>

Labels: Affirmation， Love， Friends， Family.

I will love to thank Lewis for his presence in my life. He brings me huge abundance of joy and happiness in my life. All prolific love, appreciation, cherish, attention, motivation, trust and belief. Man... I do love him so much i can scrutinize it down from bits and pieces to molecules and atoms. I had never ever felt so happy before. I had never known this feeling of life's attachment. I never thought I'd reach this stage of happiness. Its so unknown! Its life!He has opened up a new door in my life and is so prepared to journey in with me. I can see him, in all directions. I can feel him even with my eyes closed. It's a very special and dear feeling. One that tells u straightaway, He's Your Man.

原来。。。以前我对幸福的认识是那么的陌生。 也原来。。。 这次的感觉，才是幸福。

I need to thank you. Because you had put something special into me. It's more than courage.

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for you only. says:
orh
jenny ah i ask u sth
what do u think of lewis?

jennywawa says:
not my type
lols

for you only. says:
other than NOT UR TYPE got other answer or not har
LOL kns, if ur type den what m i suppose to say oso

jennywawa says:
lols...
1st and most direct ans mah

for you only. says:
as MY BOYFRIEND LA
aiyo... u cock de
LOL

jennywawa says:
oik la... on the serious note
he really appreciates u
for you only. says:

jennywawa says:
i cannot judge whether he really loves u anot mah
love is between u n him
only u can feel it
others wont know de

for you only. says:
... ya...
on serious note.. hmm...
thanks!!! haha...

jennywawa says:
right mah?
=))

for you only. says:
haha... actually... he teach me a lot of thing that makes me feel like a changed person.
and i like the change. it makes me appreciate many things around me.
and many people too. =)
so lidat leh, NEVER FORSAKE UR JIE MEI
cuz know so damn bloody long. if never keep in contact, really very lang fei
life is so black and white with people who knows u so little compared with people who knows u for years...
den u feel like u're walking in and out...
this is a feeling, i will never get, when i'm with my ex.
he only makes me wanna avoid people..
so now, i must do many things to compensate what i lose before. =D lidat den good.
imagine when we all married
wakakaka.... the feeling...
of people and sisters so close to u
it's a big big bonus, on top of u having found ur laogong.

jennywawa says:
imagine " eh lula.. 3 que 1 ah"

for you only. says:
HAHAHAHA
den damn funny lor
must really make it happen la
we know each other so long
if never maintain
really very lang fei
very very
den u imagine nx time marry liao
ur laogong introduce us ur house, ur baby, ur everything share with him
den we laugh at the past
his foolishness, and his gratefulness... of u, who still stays with him, lovingly.
we will definitely reach that stage.
JIAYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Tell me the meaning of 前所未有。If you do not know the meaning clear enough, see what i typed to jenny. I had never ever, done this before in my life.

Speaking my thoughts out, explicitly.

haha.. so another thing, what Eric said of it. xD

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for you only. says:
if i give birth nnow la
n u dun mind 23 years diff.

*ڱ E c h O says:
i am god-father!!!!

for you only. says:
AHHAHAHAHAAHA

*ڱ E c h O says:
HAHAHAHAH

for you only. says:
my kids will have a lot of god fathers
confirm

*ڱ E c h O says:
lol

for you only. says:
his brothers + my bros!
wakakakaka

*ڱ E c h O says:
lol
tell your child a story

for you only. says:
n they'll be showered with love... presents... a lot of godfather's love too...

*ڱ E c h O says:
of a god-father far far away
in a cold country
call Canada

for you only. says:
HAHAHAHAHAA

*ڱ E c h O says:
lol

for you only. says:
den my child will wanna go c u
can la can
NO PROBLEM GA LA

*ڱ E c h O says:
yes yes

for you only. says:
YEAH YEAH
den imagine
she's sucha pretty babe
knock on ur door...
"god dad?" *stares with shimmering eyes*

*ڱ E c h O says:
<-- that?

for you only. says:
YES YES
hahahahhahahaa
DEN U'LL GRAB HER IN
"come ah loi! eat!!!"
HAHAHAHA
i'm sure my decendants will be pretty de

*ڱ E c h O says:
乖女！你啊妈leh?

for you only. says:
HAHAHAHA
妈妈在美国

*ڱ E c h O says:
卖了去金山

for you only. says:
....

*ڱ E c h O says:
lol

for you only. says:
爸爸也去金山了，买妈妈
LOL

*ڱ E c h O says:
lol

for you only. says:
but serious leh
really very interesting wor
must make it happen. except the 金山 part

*ڱ E c h O says:
ya, life is interesting
haha yes yes

for you only. says:
i was so damn dead last time
darn. i can't believe it
now im so happy and free

*ڱ E c h O says:
yup.
and so much
within 2 months
since I met you
so much had happened to you
you changed your job
you had a new (and much improved) boyfriend aka husband
you have a new bro in freezing Canada.
Life's interesting isn't it?
Got rid of a Kevin
Now trying to get rid of J's not-so-man-boyfriend

for you only. says:
hahahaha... super eh... LOLS
u see what i type to her
*refer to pasted from jenny*

*ڱ E c h O says:
ya
i am happy for you

for you only. says:
HAHAHA it's lewis
i wasn't like this before...
i thank him...

*ڱ E c h O says:
yup
u out of the darkness
therefore
i can sleep
though I am afraid of the dark
you can all shiny now
lightt the corner up for me
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many times... i ask myself before... Will i really marry the right man. How will i know if he is the so called "RIGHT MAN"? Now, i know le.

Thank you so much darling. =D *hugs*

Labels: 幸福 + 珍惜 + 友情 + 爱情 + 亲情 = 全部。

KNS... reading Jenny's blog really fire up that thing in me... darn... (dun ask me what's that thing i don't know too. LOL). I co-read her bf's blog. and i found out the reason why! DARN... HE'S JUST A COWARD...

i know i was a coward before. i know it well! that's why i know that feeling perfectly! but thing is if he don't talk ..... den really end liao eh!

look.. at... the..... mSN.... CONVO!!

J: hello?
(no response)
J: hello? dardar ah?
G: wad?
J: lula jio go the IT fair later leh u wan go?
G: i not free
~kup~ <--- MEANS HANG THE CALL UP
J: .....

fookkkk... up man... this stupid guy. age 23. pls la... so many guys at ur age are so much more MATURE LOR...
*REFER TO ERIC HO* <--- eric! darn, pls comment.

NOW LET'S SEE THE STUPID BOY'S BLOG (i quoted it)

i may talk v harshly,
i may act like i dun care,
i may jus look like an ignorant bastard..
but no1 will eva noe how im feeling inside me..

LET ME TELL U WHAT I TOLD JENNY. (when she's bathing i dun think she hv time to reply)


for you only. says:

i feel like slapping ur boy

his blog is a pile of fucked up rubbish

he MAY TALK VERY HARSHLY OR HE ALR DID IT? and ACT LIKE DUN CARE? what may? he did it. and MAY LOOK LIKE AN IGNORANT BASTARD? he is alr one!

fucked up, no one knows what he's feeling inside BECAUSE HE DUN EVEN KNOW HOW TO OPEN HIS FUCKING MOUTH TO TALK! how to know? god ah? he needs to know one thing ok. one simple thing that is U ARE HIS GIRLFRIEND NOT HIS MOTHER. even his mother who gave birth to him oso may misunderstood him

let alone his girlfriend? siao ah? sound so pathetic lidat. in fact, this blog he wrote really makes him look pathetic la. piang. dun wan talk out say ppl duno the feeling. HOW TO KNOW SIA?eh, u not god, if not, u're not a psychologist, psychiatrist, doctor leh! if wanna know, also need his cooperation

how to one-sided guess and guess?? this is ignorance! and being one who don't really want to talk it out is being DON'T CARE! and when u try to coax him and he blast at u, it's TALKING VERY HARSHLY! piang... i think in the end he's just stupid. he just want to run away

run and run and say rather break ur heart etc, what shit is this? RATHER <-- what he means? RATHER BREAK UR HEART BY ENDING EVERYTHING? he got a problem with himself. HE WOULD RATHER NOT WORK IT OUT HIMSELF, HE'D RATHER GIVE U UP! piang... fucking irresponsible...

siao man... i see liao... i remember of my past... he's just another bastard. he better grow up and face it that he got to continue with u and solve problems with u together. if not, i'll also not encourage u to get together with him. as word of advice..


it's really pissing me offfffffffffffffffffffff...... >.<

Labels: ANGRY AH

I was talking to jenny just now on the msn. i saw her posts. it was all emotional. the man she's with now is tearing her up. i can't bear to see her like this. it's hurting me. =(

i jioed her to dinner tomorrow, hope i can make it la... =/ i hate to stay at home all day also. haha. she asked if i need to pah tor or not. i said no need. why? because the immediate help is for her le. She felt unwanted. SHE FELT UNWANTED?! WTF IS THIS? thanks to that bloody eugene. stupid and childish guy. i wonder.

Why do 2 people love each other this much can end up hurting each other this badly. i had it before. i couldn't understand it too. so i choose to just stay happy all the way. whatever hurt or shit that comes i will just solve them one by one. running away is NOT THE WAY TO SOLVE A PROBLEM LEH! hais hais hais..... =( what did that eugene do to u man... i wish i can kill him for u. wtf is he thinking and doing... wtf la...

YOU SEE WHAT THAT FUCKER DID TO HER!
j: dinner wan?
g: dunwan
j: why not?
g: cos not la
j: dun feel like dinner or dun feel like seeing me?
g: both

great...

WTF.. SEE LIAO DULAN. IT WAS EXACTLY WHAT I KENA BEFORE. argh. fucked up. i'm never gonna be in this state again. see liao can cry... hais... =(

on the flip side when she's actually depressing... i felt happy about mine. i feel so guilty la. =/ i don't know why i feel like this also. weirdz rite. =/

so finally. let me post a few pictures of us up ba. =)






hmmm high chance that we're smart people. look at our forehead~ it's so damn high and shiny lor. LOL! some people said we look alike, do we?

I had added a new "celebration" for the year, for myself. <3>

I CELEBRATE "LEAP YEAR 2008"!!!

WHY?

Because... 4 years from now, i'll be married. <3>

Today went out with someone for a dinner and movies though. lols. "meet the spartans". it's a crap movie. but it's damn funny. hahahaa. though a commedy. i felt as if my heart had leapt a beat too. (perhaps cuz it's "LEAP" year) LOLS.

It was a wonderful. I'd enjoyed myself a lot. <3

Listening to "Fly me to the moon" now... i do love this song a lot... the melody and lyric brings me to a floating wonderland.... where i can imagine myself with someone i love up there. i love the dark skys. i love the stars. i love the planets. i love the universe. who will bring me there? <3>

Chapter 7. Number of Completeness.

What a coincidence. =)

Labels: No. 7 signifies completeness. Fly me to the moon. Leap year 2008.