So much hesitation and finally now i'm typing these...

TO EVERYONE :

MY FACEBOOK ACCOUNT HAS BEEN HACKED. PLEASE DELETE YOURSELVES FROM MY FACEBOOK PROFILE. THANK U.

What exactly happened had disgusted me. But the same time, it had made me felt like i've done something 100% impactful on a man who once loved me. He said he once fell for a bitch. I've not been labelled one before. But if i were to label him, he's no better than a jerk.

This HE whom i typed above is my ex - V.

Yes. I couldn't sleep whole night cuz of him. He whom declared that I had not been truthful to him, had cheated on him. Caused his studies to take a plunge. That I had destroyed him. All the humiliation I caused him. ETC. BUT FUCK, please turn around and then take that slap back. You were the one who caused it too. You ain't so innocent. Stop shifting everything to me like i've laundered ur assets, burned your house down, raped your sister, killed your family and disfigured you. Damn.

What did you do, that made you like this? Have you ever wondered?

1. You kept me when I wanted and needed to go. You insisted on keeping the relationship when both of us already had mutually understood, we're destructive.

2. You tried so damn hard to change and twist me. You know I couldn't help it. You wanted me to be in YOUR WAY, to SUIT YOU. Too bad, it didn't turn out as what it was expected.

3. My filthy mouth aside, yours isn't any better. Your use of sarcasms on me turned into insults. Yet, you have had your way to deny it through. In the end, I was left with nothing but to accept.

4. Yes, you WERE gentle before. You WERE nice to me before. You WERE my lover before. But that doesn't mean, what u said MUST BE TRUE! What u told me before, ALL OF IT, THAT I CANNOT FIND A MAN WHO IS BETTER THAN YOU, THAT I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER, THEY WERE ALL NONSENSE, AND THEY WOULDN'T COME TRUE, BUT, AT THAT TIME ONLY, THAT'S BECAUSE, YOU WERE THE MAN, THEN!

5. I hadn't done you any wrong by saying ' I do not see a future with you.' We both know. I had asked you before. You too, said you couldn't see a future with me. Since we're unable to see future, why carry on? On the contrary, if i can see a very clear future with another man, what makes me a bitch for turning to another man? I don't think you're very smart at this. To further explain, I had already showed you 99% of all the breakup signals. I never thought you would be as smart as holding on to the 1%, of not letting me go.

6. You can be sued for slander by calling me a bitch, hurling all those vulgarities at me, and even bragged that you had once been violent to be before. Discount? Your attitude is incorrigible. I do not wish to really talk to someone this barbaric.

7. I had loved you before. U took this for a ride. Fine. It's ok. Afterall, we're quits. It's the END. You wouldn't wish to accept any of what i typed? It's only because you thought you were the only one putting in effort. In your eyes, what i had done before, they were practically as minute as dusts.

8. Communication breakdown. You're too long-winded and detailed. You blame me for my horrible memory. Each and single event that you had remembered and I had forgotten, you would said i had CONVENIENTLY FORGOTTEN IT CLEAN. What sarcasm! How do u want to force me to remember things that i couldn't!? Fuck up ok. You even nitpicked me on the english i used. Said my command of english sucked. Said that I couldn't coherently express what I had in mind to you. In the end, I lost all patience to talk to you, and you still carried on your old grandfather story. Hello! I'M REALLY NOT MADE TO TALK TO YOU. You knew it. And YOU TOO, couldn't stand talking to me. We both KNOW. What makes you think you don't have a problem with yourself then?

9. Graciousness seemed to cease it's existence in your mind's dictionary. You took back almost 90% of what you had from me, nvm. You even sent me an email to tell me what I owed you still. Told me u were unsatisfied with the conditions? Please. Its been years your shit stucked with me. Be grateful that none of your books were crumpled or folded. I kept them in the BEST CONDITION already. You wanna hiam, go cry alone in that corner. I ain't gonna be bothered. What layered above all covers of your stuff were just dusts. Clean it urself, will you?

10. I'm truly sorry for only one thing i did to you. I shouldn't have started with you. All those inputs and outputs of the relationship tore us down. You thought you were the victim don't you? All these years of tugging and pushing and pulling and kicking matters around, you knew that our end, is never marriage. You are just refusing to let me go.

stubborn asshole...

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