其实我不知道应该用华语或者英语写这篇blog。。。还是mix吧！

I fall in love...

So many past relationships that bogged me down of my vision of love. I hadn't quite remember how I used to view love as. Today, I'm writing this on my blog, because I'm currently in a relationship that brings tears to my eyes so often... when i think about it... when i feel of it... when finally, a smile drew across my face as i see him, walking closer and embrace me wholly. I'm very consumed in a love that loves me too. My vision of love that was coloured by mud washes itself with my many tears fell, cleansing my heart all over again.

Renewed... As he smiles, it moves me a lot. Each affirmation that he gives me brings me to new height. It brings me into believing that i can do much more, for the future and happiness.

Polished... my personality very much shaped with soft notes leaving behind.

Refined... i'm brought to a point where i learn how to love a person in their way, slowly. I never thought i will ever follow another's idea than my own...

A man, who looks in the future is holding my hand tight, bringing me along to fly with him. I had never thought i could find anyone who thinks as deep as I do... but he thinks way ahead of me. A visionary man, a man who showers me his care and love... i love u deep...

一辈子寻找的爱，就在这一瞬间把握在手心。

我并不单纯，但怎么遇见了你，我却变得傻傻的。。。 我说不出口。 虽然很想把心掏出来让你看个清楚，我又怎么糊里糊涂起来？ 这种感觉，是我一辈子感觉第一次到的。


其实在你抱着我的时候， 眼泪是会非常轻易的留下来的。。。

我那刚强的一面，在抱着你的时候立刻被溶解，浮现出了脆弱的我。。。 怎么这样子的我，就只是在你面前表现出来？ 每次你见到我流泪，你那担心却又匪夷所思的表情，让我的心摇摇晃晃的。 然后我就会有一种非常特殊的感觉， 一种被你疼到极点得感觉，也是一种被你深爱的感觉。 这会让我哭得更严重。。。 -_- 非常古怪吧！哈哈哈。。。

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我最爱的人。。。 谢谢你。。。 在我的生命降下了希望， 让我一次又一次的感动。

Labels: Thank You..., To my Beloved

i cannot understand what did i do wrong. but i feel like i've did something wrong. perhaps what lewis said is right. i'm really wrong in the first place. as a friend, i should stand by her no matter what ba?

perhaps i should be more understanding. i shouldn't flare a single bit and let her whack me instead. the plight she's in now i should have known de. Given that state, anyone will result like this upon flare. i should have just be more tolerant and stop my nonsense with her guy. damn... i hadn't been feeling like this for the longest time man.

i guess next time i should play it smarter. just listen and answer her questions direct. instead of fending up more bad things about that guy whom i thought had "AT LEAST" grown up a little bit. I had told him to be tolerant. Instead, i didn't do what i preached. damn shameful.

i don't know. but everything happens for a reason. the right reasons need to be found by the right person. all else doesn't really matter if the key is compatible with the lock. however when it doesn't, the struggle put into inserting, twisting and bending the key, won't ever lead to an unlock lock.

hais... i had let this affected my day like that. how unproductive.

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recently hadn't gotten any sale leh...

why is it that my business had went downstream all of a sudden?

i hope my fever never come back. and HOPE IS GOOD.

my $200,000 UT this month. Can my personal target be hit? Please let it be reached......

damn down... wth.

Labels: shd have listened to lewis... =(