从来你都不知道这些小小的事情。。。

虽然看来不起眼，但也的确是我爱你的方式。

I'm in love with all things you like.

I'm interested in all things that captured your  attention.

I'm ready to give up what I like which you do not like. It can be anything.

Somehow, my world revolves around you. I tagged a label to anything that we said we liked, places we've been to, wishes and goals we aim for, smells that are like yours or yours only, anything and everything that involves only U.

You get what you wished for. A imperfect man whom I loved perfectly and sees perfectly. A love that is able to kill my own flaws and soften to him. 

I used my own hands with my own pen and signed my life off to him willingly...

....

The probability of him going to be posted to overseas for a year seems to be crystalising in process... all the more I'm trapped in my own painted fog. I'm fucking afraid I'll be lost without him around me... damn it... It is a good opportunity, I want him to go too. The more I hit my  chest with my own fists to logic with him with my clear and articulated voice in such conviction... the more I'm convicted with insecurity, fears and unexplainable sadness... In accounting terms, "it doesn't tally!" [i mean my head and my heart] HOW??? haiz... :(

On the other hand, I'm afraid I'll be kicked in my own ass by my own karma... Just as I departed France for my own country, a mth later I wanted to get rid of my ex cuz of his many weird temperaments and expectations.

Will i be the one to be written off next?

We'll really kiss goodbye then dardar... =( haiz... I'm jz damn pessismistic and a hypochondriac of all aspects of life. 

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