Poverty

Anyone who feel poor before will know how poverty taste like. I hate poverty and I know no one likes it. But just why some people can get so fucking rich and me, right here, is still sucking my thumb and waiting for money to drop?


Seems like even goals were all wiped out. What marriage, what degree, what fucking dreams made were all just dreams. Times are bad, market is bad, be vigilant, u may be sack.


What can i fucking do to sustain myself? DOH! All of what i have, I can't believe it either, but i got it all by myself. I Don'T deserve any gifts. N Yes, i'm very unbalanced emotionally. We're poor, we can't afford, we save like how we slaved like a dog (or a cow) for our jobs.


My future is going to be just that bad, that poor. We are not going to work on something we are good at. We cannot communicate to each other even anyway. At the end of the day, i was thrown by a fucking crude remark or a doubt, "I can not work hard. I can not tahan."


Looking at my job history, having worked from 8am to 4am even for days, I had went through.

Looking at my past, having worked consistently from 9pm to 2am (3am reached home), I've also managed it for a year plus.

Looking at my past where I run around looking for business, I don't think i'm a fucking bimbo who sits in office and file my nails.


In the end, I don't feel like i'm appreciated for my past. No one ever wanted to find out or know even, and then pass me such fucked up remarks of me. I am so useless right? Then just leave me alone alright? You needn't come to me anymore.


This feeling will definitely snowball.


He said he's tired, busy ALL THE TIME.


AM I NOT? I'm in a fucking bad shape also!


I'M BLOODY INCOHERENT NOW.

Labels: Incoherent. Berserk. Insanity.