My my... i'm so freaking excited already!

Tomorrow i'm going to fly to Jakarta FINALLY! Man... how long did I not travel already? 1 yr? So finally i'm reaping my reward!

Saying that, i'm going to pay off my stupid installment soon and den can save up a pile for my November's trip to Japan. Stupid la, i should have just paid in full back then. Why so poor that time?! Kns, this $2.5k liability is so sickening... what else? Laptop lor!!!

HAIS!

Even my credit card owings i oso pay till 88-99. This dumb laptop de is like never ending. If i forfeit my payments den I gotta pay them an additional. Doesn't make sense to pay more so I just continue to slog for it. Argh, anyways, I'm gonna aim to pay the rest in Full by end June. Hope I am able to get myself recontracted so I can save for Japan T_T...

ANYWAY!

I'd packed most of my stuff in my Antler. *loves*
Brought only 2 T-shirt, 1 shorts, 1 berms.
Lingerie of course muz bring!
Some make up and skin care..
Money~
passport
air ticket
camera
handphone
a book
a brolly
a portable bag
medicine
plasters
bla bla.
that's all.

and guess wad.

my luggage is so damn light lor.

YAY! GOTTA GET THINGS THERE!

and more YAY YAY! FINALLY GET TO C MY DARDAR..

*damn happy*~ smiles* :D

oh ya...

i must get my Juicy Couture Perfume there!!!
i simply love Juicy! :P

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how i hope time FLIES NOW and let it be LABOUR DAY soon!!!

i can't wait to go to Indonesia really..

but seriously, I can't wait to faster clear up all those rubbish by June.

soon i'll be able to rub away all my emo-ness of these days, and get recharged! hehe...

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oh ya, i just went to Hilton Hotel for a function.
man...
its a great event serious.
great ambience.
good service. (rate it at 80%)
nice food. (buffet)
Excellent MC.
Great people mixing!

wahaha..

Thanks Glen for bringing me there... if not i think i'll be boredddddd to deathhh... FORGOT TO MENTION. I'm on a fever when i went, and i'm still on a fever at a time like NOW, 4.30AM! haaha..

but if i'm gonna hold a wedding...

think i won't consider Hilton...

The function was held at the Grand Ballroom.

But it's like quite small nia... :P that's why. hehee.

carrying a heavy heart now..
just had a conversation which was depressing.
i always find many questions unanswered.
no matter how i try to pry the mouth open for one.
we were talking not-very-casually.
my intent was serious and sensible...
but the mind was crashed by the speeding & oncoming shock...


"we made a pact to die young ....."


that opened up all the unspoken truths...
showed me all the reasons why somethings,
just don't happen to be on the right paths.


was that an impulse..
the difference of ideas immediately flood me.
the molecules broken up into atoms and sank my heart...
broke into my nervous system...
and i went berserk at instant.


i couldn't think logically.
the words attacked me at my subconscious mind...
it's impact so deep,
i wanted an end.


i couldn't accept it...

"it was just a joke..."

i was told.


was it?
it doesn't seem to be one.

"different aspect in life will change ur wish de"

i agree totally...
but,
why did you say that inappropriate "joke".. at an inapproriate moment?
the only thing i fail to understand now is...
where is the trust?
can i trust you further?
shall we put everything on hold...
i don't seem to be able to get a grip of myself.
i'm losin' it.
all the more i feel a warm gush rising to my bottom lids...


how much had u put in effort,
and how much you had shown me of your love...
i had understood..
a word which dashed a lot of my belief...
must come from you.
as much as i can still hear my voices in my heart...


"I still believe..."

"Please bring us blessings..."

"Can we still hold happiness in our hands?"


can you turn back time and take back what you said?
can i please... take back what i said...?
please let me not realise what was not supposed to be known...
please let me not err and act on an impulse...


i'd rather be kept in lies forever...

sometimes... i just feel so lonely i wanna rush out and shout out loudly, hysterically, insanely... the hollow echo replied itself.. carrying more emptiness than what I thought I already was.

fleeting moments... one that never lasts...
temporal matters... which made me happy n unhappy at a short span of time..

to protect myself... agitations became my friend.

i couldn't face off the world and let loose my delicate heart.
that'll probably be my worst disaster.

i'd reached some state. where i feel like crying, but not crying too...


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yesterday went cycling with M.

oh yea, it's sure fun. :D

took some photos though, please see below!

after cycling... we went to church. o_o wahaha.. i wasn't a christain la.

oh ya!!! i'm oso badly burnt! M's sunblock's EXPIRED!!!

my god... heng i bought the aloe gel... really soothe my skin fast.. :D


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dad's feet were swollen.
it's getting worse.
wonder how bad it'll become...
i'd pushed him to go to a doctor.
all he went to is a chinese physician.
let's see if the TCM precription helps ba..
if it doesn't.
i'll drag him to a doctor.
even if it meant to be hit.


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emoing. . .

fossiling. . .

thinking when will i be free . . .

i wanna go on my vacation immediately! ! !

hais :(


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oh ya. . .
talk about some job "unfortunate" events...
JW she's down with chicken pox.
goodness gracious...
wonder how she caught it!
but i'm covering her job again..
always come up with so many pattern one.


den there's this girl who's resigning...
and we are gonna buy her some gift...
i'm not quite agreeable.
$20 vouchers EACH.
gosh!
there's like 12 person ok...
$240.
what a costly gift though!
i don't even know her well and i'm gonna contribute.
even on my bday.
no one got me a cake too wad.
sheesh...zzz


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think i woke up at the wrong side of my bed today..
i just feel like cryin' n not cryin.
menses probably?
i wish i can really..
turn back time and adjust what i had done wrong...


all these months....


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i'd finally booked the tickets for Jakarta !


nb knn... that tiger webby is indeed LOUSY...


at the end of the day i paid $120 for the round trip.


ok la.


juz that get a bit pissed off by the stupid interface...



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I MISS MY ADIORABLE DARDAR...

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gonna go cycling at 11am later with M!
gosh..
to think of it...
i hadn't finish my sales quotation yet...
what a burden!

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i love my adiorable 4.

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gonna slash off $1k nx month!

argh!




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please see above link! it's damn funny and i laughed my ass off... goodness... the lyrics are like...

"u're not alone, the government's here with u... though our income's far apart, we oso take e cut~"


anyone who knows Michael Jackson's song "You're not Alone"? The songs sounds great, and great fit with these lyrics too... HAHAHA...

waoooooooooooo~

i'm finally going to jkt... :P this labour day! we'll go bandung! all the zara etc clothes there.... manufactured!

Trip will be from : 1st May 2009 ~ 5th May 2009

as much as i wish i can go back to Europe, its like a faraway dream now... so poor how to go! haha!

dardar going back to jkt on monday le... *sobs*... AIKS. whatever lah~ haha, he'll be back soon too. *brace up!*

anyways, these days quite lotsa update. o_o jz that i find myself so lazy to blog it out. so i'll state them in point form. :D

• Movie Lovers : Watch "Knowing". Main cast : Nicholas Cage
• Water Lovers : Wild Wild Wet. Go once can le. Try out the Sky Cyclist!
• Slimming Strategy : True Yoga. Go for "Hatha Yoga"!
• Book Lovers : Read up “穿越时空地下铁”。 Japanese trans. Chinese Novel!
• Bag Lovers : Pinning for a GUCCI.. :D
• Travellers : Gonna get to Jakarta this May, and Tokyo this Nov.
• Career Prospect : One resigned from post, gonna continue with SUN!
• Visitations : Toffee came to my house 2 days ago, and bit my mum's arm.. *whack!*
• Chores : Renew my passport online. Paid 70 bucks after failing to do so cuz I sort of got konked in my head when i exhausted my 3 attempts 24 hours ago, keying in what wasn't asked for on the website. LOL. Date of Issue for NRIC : I KEY IN MY BDAY. THEN, I KEYED IN MY PASSPORT ISSUANCE DATE TWICE. There goes it. 3 attempts gone. Waited for 24 hours later to do it again. haha!!!
• Indulgence : Bought a swimming suit for $70. Bought a pretty vermillion top for $50.
• Activities : Mahjong. Lost $50 bucks due to a knn round... haha.
• Labelled Favourites : Passion Fruit Green Tea!
• Recent Loves : High Society Passion Album. (Genre: Tango/ Latin)
• Musical Adoration : Libertango (By BOND)
  
• Rubbish News : Some persistent guy who had been courting me and wooing like crazy. Dislike it and had been avoiding him since. Need to still speak to him though. But gonna draw my lines straight and clear and dark. NO CHANCE!
• Nails : Painted it glittering pink. BeautifuL!
• Friends : I miss Jasmine Tan and Myrtle Lee. Oh. I miss Jenny Chung too. Not missing out Koh Lee Cheng. Girls, I need to go out with u guys. Outdoor activities. Nail and Hair. Food. HAHA!
• Upcoming Events : DEYI Chalet around May. *anticipating*

Alrite FOLKS. hehe...

anyways... this new blog skin will soon be AMENDED again. muahaha... i sort of miss my previous pink one.. but this new skin is still pretty yea? juz that the background is white. hmmm... perhaps I can make it more LAURA STYLE... hehehe... NOT GOTH! Just more PASTEL and HIGH CONTRAST! hehe!

alrite, i'm feeling so random now. gonna go! visitation to granny :D

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