Today hock cried and called me... his tone was shivering and was slurrish.. and i know for sure, HE'S BROKE UP WITH HIS GIRL.

it's a sad and happy thing though. at least his breakup was a clean one. no grey area in between and both know for sure that there's no turning back. hurt no doubt will be the only stumbling stone to moving on further, but for sure, he'll be stronger! As he always asked me, "SIS! Why you so stirrrr-ooongggg (strong)?" haha.. well. I had a good training ground before!

His failed relationship was already a very upsetting moment for him because the girl he's with fell for another guy. Seriously, I felt quite natural about it. To me, she really isn't the type who will stay steady and long by hock. Personally I know her and we talked often before. How i perceived her wasn't wrong as proven now... hais...

But now hock's he's also affected by retrenchment.

2 in 1.

Nothing can be as bad as his scenario... I only hope him well. Of course he will "book" me for many days la.. ahahaha.. no choice, we 7 yrs of buddyhood. LOL!

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later gonna go drinking with Susan they all... this woman oso another one who juz outta love. hahahaha... c how later la.. update later!!!


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Dardar!! I MISS U... 好想你。。。
yes i do. although i get angry with u often.
no choice. u aint around.
hehehe...
but for sure, i will support whatever decision you make.
I'll stand by you.

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i will no longer be concerned of what you held on tight of your friends.

to me they are nothing really and i can definitely survive without them. they bring utterly no value to me, as they did to you. also, it isn't something i can really accept when tried to bring me in the belief of MERGING with them as a whole. with people like that i don't think i can ever mingle well around either!

since u are not ready to listen U CAN TELL ME. i don't appreciate this act of interrupting when i am really POURING OUT MY WOES TO YOU and getting you misinterpreting it. if you know me well by now, u should know i hate to repeat myself. so if you don't mean what u said, shut that up! i can always bottle it up to myself and explode it somewhere with someone else, who will never be u.

as i go on wandering my wondering mind, i found more communication pitholes along the way. seemingly, most arguments stem from your friends and i. i can tell u straight now here, i never liked to join ur FRIENDS in mahjong! OK? GET IT? CLEAR NOW? i can almost NEVER BE MYSELF, and seriously, it's IRRITATING ME AND I FEEL WORSE EACH TIME!

They are YOUR FRIENDS, and NOT mine. As much as i want to open up my socialising window to accommodate, i don't think i'm much accepted either. I have my circle of friends too who i feel better to rely on than urs. Without you around as u're in Jakarta, I DON'T EVEN SEE UR FRIENDS AROUND CONTACTING ME. What makes a friend, A FRIEND?

They ONLY REGARD YOU.

I'm never in the picture!

Get it straight and stop asking why i feel bad each time. I'm sick of it.

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