There is a kind of deep hatred I have for my job now. Seriously, I can't wait to be sacked or resign from the job. It had already penetrated so deep into my bones and for sure, it's definitely one of the most disgusting job ever.

- NO COMMUNICATION
- NO TRAINING
- DEMANDING
- SOMETIMES UNREASONABLE (in fact, almost all the time)
- BAD SUPPORTING TEAM (the order admin)
- NO PROPER GUIDANCE FROM MANAGER
- NO UNDERSTANDING GROUNDS FROM MANAGER
- EXASPERATIONS
- OT BUT NOT RECOGNISED
- HORRIBLE MANAGERS

for once, i really buay tahan liao?! i even cried cuz of the job stress. i had NEVER EVER DONE THAT BEFORE IN MY LIFE. wht the fuck?

when i looked at my email just now.

there was an email from our internal team people to ask me to do quoting for list price etc. i was amazed, and at the same time, i abhor the stupid process because there's clearly, NO PROCESS IN PLACE!

they said that new orders with only PART NUMBERS of the equipment i will let my order admin to quote.

she slapped me back to tell me that it's not her job to do so and copied my director, her bosses, my manager to shame me.

where i got the news from was from my renewal quote team who quote RENEWAL quotes and the order admin to quote NEW quotes. Previously, there was also an order where it was NEW and ANOTHER order admin helped to quote with only part numbers. wonder what the hell is the stupid process???

now my manager machiam give up on me cuz i stupid or what i really don't know lor.

plus on my anniversary date, i cried for my job?!

totally traumatised me. i cannot take it liao lor?! piang. i sprained my foot machiam kena said i act. den my entire morning was late cuz of the sprain. no understanding. that lawrence (manager) even asked me this...

"Laura, can you tell me frankly, what exactly happened to you in the morning and you went missing?"

fuck...

perhaps i go office late all the time and that's why he asked me. but the thing is, it was really very recently only, when i kena this. just because they need my help NOW. ok. i rendered them my help wholeheartedly. worked OT.. etc.

they screwed me cuz of some processes which was NEVER in place. and i was suppose to pick up the pieces to learn ASAP. COME ON? there's so MANY pieces i can't possibly pick them all up and absorb so FAST! you really tire me out ok? it is already 6 months i'm in the office to work and i still don't know many things because NO ONE TEACHES ME? I asked around. I checked around. I really did FIND OUT. Every single day i'm asking around. the same questions. different situations. different answers each time with the same question.

WHAT THE FUCK... HORRIBLE!

Labels: not happy at all